Christmas, Cookies, and Cleaning

Once again, it’s been a while since my last post.  I’ve been busy.  And maybe sleepy sometimes.  The 17th was my last day at school, although I did have to drive back on Friday to pick up some art projects.  I ended up with an A, A-, and a B, so that’s pretty good, although I wonder if I should have been less honest about what I thought my grade should be in ceramics and maybe I would have gotten something higher.  Oh well.  I also could have probably gotten an A in drawing, instead of an A-, but I just didn’t have time or want to put in that much effort.  The final project was enough work.  My ceramics professor felt that my final piece was too ambiguous.  Maybe I like ambiguity and am open to interpretation.  Maybe it doesn’t matter to me whether the viewer sees a blob of fat or something playful on that child’s chair.  I’ll take some pictures at some point, I suppose, and then you can see it yourselves.

I’m cleaning my room.  Really…I can clean and type at the same time…Actually, I’ve cleaned for a few hours now and I can finally sit comfortably on my bed, so I’m taking a break.  Granted, I don’t know where to find most of my clothes right now (they’re in trash bags instead of piles until I put them away), but I did make progress…at least on my sleeping area.  My grandma is coming to our house today, and staying for a few days, so the house needs to be presentable.  She doesn’t know we live in a mess every day, and my mom wants to keep up that illusion.  Whatever.

Christmas time was pretty fun.  Last Sunday, we had our Christmas program with Sunday school, and that was exciting since I’m one of the preschool teachers.  I gave the kids little goodie bags and the presents they made for their families, and they were all really excited.  A couple of kids also gave me gifts, which is always sweet.  I went to the Goodwill party last week and got to see Santa, and it was really cool seeing how excited all the clients were to see him.  Church on Sunday was pretty empty, but was overflowing on Christmas Eve.  After church on Monday, my grandparents came to our house for dinner and Christmas rice (which is delicious) and card games and conversation.  Then, on Christmas, we opened our presents, ate cinnamon rolls, and went to their house for Christmas with them and my aunt and uncle and two of his kids.  In the late afternoon, my great-aunt visited, and we had more delicious food.  Also, I ate Grandma’s cookies.  They are the best.  She makes about 20 kinds each year (she used to do about 40, and multiple batches of each), and they’re wonderful.  I decorated the sugar cookies this year and helped make a new kind with peppermint candies and colored sugar.  I love making cookies with Grandma.

I don’t really have much else to tell you right now, so I guess I’ll get back to cleaning or something.  I hope you’re having a lovely wintertime (or summer, if you’re in that hemisphere).

Orange Juice with Mango

Really, the apple juice is best, but this will be good, too.

This morning, I made snowmen with the Goodwill participants.  We used a plastic cup and toilet paper tube to dip in paint and stamp on the paper.  Most of their pictures were more snow fort or blizzard than snowman, but they had fun and the results were pretty awesome.  I really enjoy volunteering with them.  It is something to look forward to and a reason to not sleep all day when I don’t have class.  Next week, I think we might make some fabric scrap beads or letters to hang up.  I’ll decide that later.  Oh, and they’re having a Christmas party next week and I’m invited!  And I’ll be able to be there all day next week, since my classes will be done on Monday!

Speaking of Monday and classes, I have three finals, one for each class.  That makes sense.  For ceramics, I have to bring in a couple pieces from each project set we made (six cups, two bowls, etc.), the best of the best for each category.  Everything has to be glazed by Thursday so that it can be fired in time, so that’s what I did yesterday and what I’ll be finishing tomorrow.  My final project, which had no parameters really, other than being mixed media, is a blob on a chair.  It should be fired today or sometime soon, so then it’ll be ready for me to paint.  I’ve decided to paint it instead of glazing because it will give me more time to work on it without worrying about firing.  Now, I just need to find my paint/buy some new cheap paint for it so I have enough to cover the whole blob in multiple layers and make it how I want it to be.  I’m looking forward to that.

For drawing, I’m making a collage and then drawing it to fill the giant paper.  My professor suggested I take a picture of the collage and then project it onto the paper to draw the basics.  That’ll save some time and stress, so I’m going to start the drawing of it tomorrow in class.  Today, I have to finish the collage and decide which part I want to draw.

Special ed. just has a final test, open book, so that should be easy enough.  I’m going to also do the extra credit for the class, due tomorrow, because it’s super easy and I have one grade that’s not 100% (she doesn’t seem to really grade anything other than 100% very often for anyone).

Besides schoolwork, I really need to clean.  My workspace is becoming unworkable, and my bedroom is really messy.  I guess that will come once the homework gets done.  Maybe.

I guess I should go do something “productive” now.  Maybe I’ll eat some ice cream.  Oh…I mean…do some homework.

Men in McDonald’s

There were men here loudly arguing about running over pedestrians in crosswalks.  Now one of them left and the others are talking about him.  Apparently middle aged men enjoy gossip.  And talking about running over college students.  Yeah, that’s a great idea.

So it’s December now.  I haven’t posted for a couple weeks.  That time went by quickly.  And I didn’t have much to say.  I did start a few posts, but never finished or posted them because they didn’t really say anything.  Not that most of my posts do, but these were even less so.

What have I been up to?  Mostly just school stuff.  I’ve finished working in wet clay, so now I just need to trim a few things, put a teapot together, let stuff dry, fire it, and then glaze and fire just about everything.  My final project, which had very little direction other than that it had to be half clay and half other stuff, is a blob.  It will be yellow and sitting in a chair.  It’s pretty cool.  As long as it doesn’t explode or something.  That would be bad.  And sad.

In drawing, my final project has to be 30″x40″ or something like that.  That’s really big.  It also has to include juxtaposition in multiple ways and have some sort of meaning.  I’m making a collage of magazine cut outs and then drawing that (and enlarging it so it’s not 5 million pictures).  Should be fun.  And take a long time.

Oh, now the men are talking about the sewers and life expectancy of out houses.  How pleasant.  And just what everyone wants to hear while eating.

Guess I don’t really have much else to say right now.

I tried to post on Monday

but apparently something involving the internet/Safari/my computer didn’t like me.  It didn’t like me much today, either, so I’ve switched to Firefox and am posting Monday’s words along with new words for today.

Since I last wrote, I’ve actually done some stuff.  Not a lot, but some.  Let’s see…On Saturday, I hung out with my best friend, playing video games for a couple hours.  Then, I went to my camp director’s baby shower.  On Sunday, I taught Sunday school and was a little crafty.  And now it’s now and I want to sleep.  It’s chilly out and I’m bored.  I had ceramics this morning, and managed to make two sets of teapot parts, so hopefully those turn into two of the four teapots I need.  Then, I had special ed…it was pretty much the same as usual.  The girls who sit around me were annoying, and we covered a topic I was familiar with already (actually, I felt like we had talked about it before in that class, but apparently not).  And then, I *prepare your shocked faces* did two things I’ve been avoiding for weeks!  I set up an advising appointment and finally wrote a note and left my late drop form in the proper mailbox, so now, at the very least, my mom can stop bothering me about those two things for a bit.  The advising appointment is on Wednesday, for about 10 minutes.  I don’t really know how much we can cover in 10 minutes…then again, I don’t know what needs to be covered, so maybe it is enough time.

I need to go to the chiropractor.  My neck and back and hips are crackly.  I also need to get a haircut.  My hair is crackly.  Maybe I’ll do that later this week.  Maybe not.

Tomorrow, I’ll be volunteering at Goodwill.  I think we’ll make bird feeders (the kind with gelatin holding together the seed and shaped by cookie cutters).  That should be fun.  Then, I could either stay there or go to a church lady’s house and knit for a bit.  I haven’t decided yet which I’ll do.  Then, I have a doctor appointment.  My life is so exciting.


And now it’s Wednesday.  Let’s see…Yesterday, I got to Goodwill and asked for the supplies for the bird feeders…they didn’t have them, apparently because when they went shopping, one of the clients had a seizure, so they came back without buying anything, and they’re short staffed, so the director doesn’t have time to go shopping…this is all fine and dandy, except for the fact that she told me she was going out shopping the last time I was there, and then left…I assumed to go buy stuff.  Apparently not.  Whatever.  They’re getting new staff in the next few weeks, so after that, she said, they should be able to get the supplies and we can do the bird feeders.  So yesterday, I went into the center, totally prepared to make bird feeders.  I had my cookie cutters and even a wooden spatula thing.  Then I couldn’t do that.  So I improvised with another project I was going to do later, paper plate weaving.  They have tons of paper plates and three skeins of yarn in various colors, so that was perfect.  I prepared the plates for weaving and precut some yarn and got some people to come into the art room.  By some, I mean I was prepared to work with two at a time and they sent in four.  I worked with them and a couple other groups.  Their weavings were mostly a strand or two of yarn tied to a web framework I had made, because nobody seemed to want to do it without my help and then they said they were done.  So, for the last two people, I changed the project.  I had the notches cut in the plates and just let them layer the yarn by securing it that way and wrapping it around.  The woman who did it was impatient, but even hers was a better result than the first attempts had been because I changed the project, but the man who did it, who I know from working with him in the spring seems to like art, spent a lot of time on his piece.  He was pleased with it, it seemed, so that was a good way for me to end my time there.  Next week, since it’s almost Thanksgiving, I’m going to try to find a project that goes with that theme.  I’ve got a few ideas, so I just have to narrow it down and figure out how to make them work with the supplies they have (or reusable supplies I could bring in).

After Goodwill started lunch, I left and went to get my own lunch.  Then, I had about an hour with nothing to do.  I hadn’t brought my computer with me, so I couldn’t make use of the restaurant’s Wi-Fi, so I decided to go to WalMart and look around for a bit.  I got a couple of Christmas present ideas for my godson, but will have to check with his mom first to make sure he’ll like them and doesn’t already have them.  I also came up with some art/craft ideas for him and his four older siblings.  They’re homeschooled, and I teach them art for a couple of weeks every winter.  It’s a really great experience with awesome kids.  I try to come up with new projects that they’ll like while still learning the skills they would if they were in public school.  So far, it’s gone pretty well, and I’d like that trend to continue this year.

After my walk around WalMart, I went to the church lady’s house.  She was hosting a gathering of ladies who knit and crochet stuff for church, like baptismal gifts and prayer shawls.  All the ladies there (about 10) were considerably older than me (some of them had grandkids in my preschool class, and some of them were old enough to be my grandma).  They liked to joke about that, and I felt very welcome in their group.  I’ve started knitting a prayer shawl with some yarn I had, so I’ll be working on that again sometime soon.  I spent about two hours there, and then went to the doctor.  When I got home, I…hmmm…what did I do?…I guess I went online for a while and ate dinner and watched TV.  I also worked on my homemade gift for my camp director’s baby.  I’m cross stitching little booties for her.  I was going to felt some shoes, but that attempt didn’t turn out so well…so I gave up, for now, and went to WalMart, planning to get onesies and fabric markers…I found those, but then saw the booties for cross stitching and decided to make them instead.  So Monday afternoon, I worked on the patterns for them.  I’m making one with a hippo on the bottom and the other with some words from a hippo song we sing at camp.  Then they’ll have little hearts on the tops of the toes.  I think they’ll be cute.  I have two words done so far, and they’re looking good.  I’m going to work on them more this afternoon and tomorrow when I’m not at my other doctor appointment.

Today, I had my advising appointment.  It did not take 10 minutes.  It took about half an hour.  Apparently, my folder was completely empty and my adviser had no idea what I had already taken or needed to take or who to talk to or anything.  So I got the old checklist from the office (they apparently haven’t updated that yet, so who knows if I’m really taking the right classes or not) with the help of the nice secretary lady who works there, and we went through my unofficial transcript together (luckily I had it on my computer already) and determined that I probably only have four more art classes to take.  He knows nothing about the education plan, so I need to find someone to talk to about that.  I also need to register for classes, but I don’t know which to register for because I don’t know what I need or which classes I’ve already taken count for my gen eds and such, or if I need any gen eds, or anything, really.  It’s a bit frustrating.  Also, apparently metals is required for my major (which, I now remember, is why I signed up for it in the first place).  So I guess I’ll have to try that again.  At least I’ve already established a relationship with the teacher, so hopefully something can be worked out when I do take it.  I’m also going to try to get accommodations through the disability services stuff, but I don’t really know what they can do about that class, since soldering is kind of a huge portion of the work.

This weekend, I’ll be working at camp, so I’m super excited for that.  I’ll do arts and crafts, but I don’t know what kind of project I’ll do yet.  I should probably come up with something.

Well, that was a lot of words.  I think I’ll be done now.  Time to cross stitch and eat and maybe even do some homework.

Flag twirlers, covered jars, and sock-shoes

There is a girl here in shoes that look like socks.  I’m not convinced they’re really shoes, but they appear to have a leather sole.  They are just stripey knits up to her knees.  I think they’re slippers.  I don’t know what she’s doing.  She is most definitely not a college student.

This room, besides holding a child in sock-shoes, also is now apparently the staging area of the flag twirling girls.  Maybe it’s raining or something outside and that’s why they’re in here.  I don’t know, but they’re loud and I don’t like it.  I suppose I could go to another room, but…this is where the comfy chair is and where I can sit in some sort of anonymity without feeling like there’s something else I should be doing.  Actually, I do feel like I should be doing something else, but that’s beside the point.

What else should I be doing?  Making covered jars, of course.  I need two done by Wednesday morning.  I just started working on them today, and actually managed to throw two sort of jars and four possible lids, so that’s good, but I still need to work on them.  I just don’t feel like it.  I could come in tomorrow, but I’m volunteering tomorrow and that will at least be all morning, and the afternoon too, probably, ’cause it’s fun.  And I need to go vote.  Busy busy.

Also, I finished my pop up last night, after much trouble and with little satisfaction.  It pretty much looks like a 12 year old made it.  Definitely not my best work.  Oh well, at least it’s done.  The critique is tonight.  That should be less than fun.  At least there are people in that class that I like and can casually chat with a bit sometimes.  Hopefully they’re there today.

I have been listening to Pandora for the last 1 1/2 hours or so and have hit the thumbs up button for almost every song.  I guess I’m in a likey mood.  It also helps that the music’s not bad.

I would really like to take a nap.  I know I say that a lot, but it’s true.  Every day.

I’m debating where to get my dinner.  I usually go to McDonald’s, but that’s over there and I’m over here.  I could go to the cafe place thing over here and get a sandwich, I guess, but they close early, so I’d have to get it soon.  I’m just not really feeling like eating right now, but I know I won’t be happy if I don’t eat later.  I do have some snacky food in my car that I could get, I guess…that might be enough.  At least, enough to get me through class, and then I could stop at McDonald’s on my way home if needed.  Yes, I think that sounds good.

I just checked out the window, and it doesn’t look like it’s raining.  Why are the flag girls in here?  They have stacks of various colored flags and poles.  Maybe they’re done for the season and are turning in their stuff.

I am a wee bit chilly.  That’s quite odd.  Maybe it’s chilly outside.  At least my computer is warm.

I am getting hungry, I think.  Maybe I should get some food.  I don’t know.

I don’t really have anything to write about now.  Not that I really did to begin with, but whatever.

Late Again

I was late for my ceramics class this morning.  Like, an hour late.  So I didn’t really get anything done.  I do plan on going back to the studio this afternoon to do some work, since we have a project due on Wednesday, but right now I need a break.  I also need to do my special ed. work that’s due tonight.  I was late because of anxiety again.  I don’t like this.

I need to schedule an advising appointment so that I can figure out what classes to take next semester.  I have to go to the art office to do so.  I’ve never been to the art office or met my advisor before, so this experience should be full of lots of anxiety.  How fun.

Hopefully, there will be mailboxes in the art office, specifically one for chairperson who I need to sign my late drop form.  That really needs to get done.

I think I’m starting at Goodwill next week.  I should probably email the lady in charge with my idea for this week and get it approved.  Problem is, I’m not quite sure what my idea is…oops.  I think we’ll either make bird feeders or cards with stamps and paper.  The cards would be easily adapted to different abilities, so maybe I’ll do that.  They could be for Thanksgiving or happy fall or something.

Yes, I just sent Goodwill an email, and I decided that we’re making cards, if that gets approved.  The other idea I wrote about was gelatin molded bird feeders, which seems like fun, so I’ll probably do that the next week.  Then, I’ll have to decide on other projects.  I’m thinking some sort of ornament making, bead making and stringing, weaving, and paper mosaics or quilts.  Any other ideas or suggestions for these ideas are appreciated.

I don’t know what else to write.  I just want to go home, but then what would be the point of having come here?  I guess I’ll just work on my special ed. and then, hopefully, when that’s done I’ll be able to do some ceramics.  Hopefully.  ‘Cause I won’t be able to come on Tuesday since I’m working at Goodwill, so then I’d just have class Monday to make the work.  Yep, I’ll have to do something today, even though I just don’t feel like I can.



I had to get up early today so that I could get to school early so that I could unwrap a clay cup and wait for it to dry.  My life is so exciting.

On my way to school, I missed my exit and had to drive at least 10 extra minutes to get back to where I needed to be.  Oh the horror.

An update on ceramics, because you really do care oh so much:  I carved four of the teacups I needed and they’re not too ugly.  I carved a hole into one, so I had to throw a new one (that’s the one that isn’t dry yet).  Once it’s ready, I have to trim it and carve the foot and then carve the body to match the others.  I spent hours trying to make satisfactorily hand built teacups, but they were all ugly or fell apart or both or something else, so I gave up on Saturday and went home.  I took clay home with me and yesterday, instead of driving to school, stayed home and managed to make five pinch pot teacup things with the help of custard bowls.  They aren’t too bad.  So that assignment’s almost done, which is good ’cause it’s due in half an hour.  I probably won’t have that last cup done because it’s still too wet to trim and there’s just not enough time to finish it before class starts, but at least I have most of it done and can probably finish that one cup today.  We will probably be having demos for teapot making today, too, so that’ll take some time, and we’re unloading our first glaze kiln probably, so that’ll take some more time.  Maybe I won’t actually finish that cup in class, but probably this afternoon.  Maybe.

The art department chairperson still hasn’t emailed me back telling me where her mailbox is, so I guess I’ll just have to go to her office this evening and hope she’s there at the time she told me she could possibly meet me.  I need to get those forms signed before they decide I’ve taken too long and try to make me keep the class and get an F.  That wouldn’t be the best way to start at this new school, and I have a legitimate reason to drop.

If anybody reading this (if anyone has read this far) is an expert paper pop-up maker or something like that, I could use your help.  For my drawing class, I’m making a pop up page of an ancient Greek statue hitchhiking on a modern countryside.  Yeah, it’s weird, but those were the words I ended up with.  So what I need help with is making the illusion of depth beyond the flat pieces popping out.  I just can’t seem to get it to be satisfactory in my mini models.  I have class tonight, work time tomorrow, and critique on Wednesday, so I need to get this figured out soon because I haven’t started drawing the pieces or background yet (because I don’t know how big they should be or what they should look like.

There’s nothing to report going on in my special ed. class.  I’m going to try to talk to the teacher today about the test questions I don’t understand.  I was going to do that last week, but she seemed busy and we only had class one day.  I was also going to print the email I sent her for reference, but I forgot, so I guess I’ll just have to use my computer to access it and get the specifics, ’cause I certainly don’t remember anymore.

I still have about 15 minutes before I need to head to class.  I would go now, but there’s already a class in there working, and I don’t have anything to do in the studio (I’m pretty sure the cup won’t be ready, and even if it is, there’s not enough time to finish it).  Oh well, guess I’ll stay here on the computer.

Also in the realm of helping me, if you have any ideas for crafts/art projects to do with adults with (mostly cognitive and some physical) disabilities, or know where I could find a good source or two with ideas, please let me know.  It’s not that I don’t have ideas of my own, but I’m always looking for more and better.

Surprisingly, for getting up around 6am, I’m not too tired.  I know, 6 isn’t really that early, but I still don’t like it. I’d rather get up at 8 or 9…or noon…

I have a few posts saved as drafts that I think will be actually interesting and informative, not just telling of my exciting waits for clay to dry, but they’re long…and I keep losing attention and/or getting overwhelmed by them.  I’m worried that they’ll lose their interest and meaning because the timeliness of them will be ruined by me taking so long to finish and post.  Oh well.  That worry’s not going to change anything; I just thought you’d like to know.

I suppose I can start packing up and heading to class now, so I guess I’ll publish this.  Since I did this post this morning, maybe I’ll work on one or more of those in progress posts this afternoon.  Or not.  I’ll see.  And you may, too, eventually.

Six Minutes

In six minutes, I am going to get off this couch and then start working.  I am at school.  I was supposed to be here this morning, but that didn’t happen.  So now I have all afternoon and evening to work on ceramics.  Obviously, I’m quite eager to do that.  Can’t you tell by my typing?

Yesterday, I managed to trim the feet of 10 teacups, so those are good.  Five of them need to be carved, or I need to throw more and carve them, so that the carving is an integral part of their design.  I also need to hand build five, with slab or coil or pinch or whatever.  It’s not that I don’t like working with clay, I just am a bit tired of this work.  We’ve made cups and bowls and plates and things, but I like making more sculptural work.  Maybe I would, but most of this time has been learning the techniques for me, which is important, but the schedule of things being done every week is different than it was at my last school.  I think it actually works better, it’s just not optimal for procrastinating, which is something I’m very good at.

One minute.  Yeah, maybe that’s not going to happen.

Oh look, it’s time for me to get up.  Maybe if I just wait a little longer…but no, I should work.  But I have hours before I have to leave…10 more minutes won’t hurt…right?

I got here about half an hour ago, but I didn’t start working right away because I was hungry and decided to eat lunch.  Now, lunch is done and I’m just…avoiding…good job

In ceramics, our next project is a teapot.  This requires making pieces that fit together.  I’ve never done that, so it should be interesting…and difficult…and ugly…yay

I did email the chair of the art department, and she told me to put the sheet for her signature in her mailbox.  I would, but I don’t know where her mailbox is.  I don’t know where any mailboxes are.  Hopefully, she responds soon and tells me so that I can get that taken care of.

I also emailed the lady in charge of the Goodwill center I volunteered at in the spring, and she said I could come back to do art with the clients once a week starting in November, so I’m looking forward to that.  I just have to come up with some activities and get them approved by her.  That should be good.  It will give me something to do besides sleep and homework.

I also am going to try to start counseling again.  I’m not sure if the therapist I worked with last has appointments available when I’m free, but I hope so, because I really liked her and was able to make some progress.  Maybe that would help me feel better…

Well, now that I’ve spent almost 40 minutes longer than I was planning not doing ceramics (also not just doing this), I think it’s about time I try to be productive.  Yes, that sounds like a plan.

Is it nap time yet?

Maybe it is, but there’s nowhere for me to sleep right now.  I am tired.  I slept all day yesterday, except for maybe six hours total, and four of those were only because I had decided to hang out with my friend weeks ago and this was the first time we were able to.  Now, I’m at school, and I want to be at home, sleeping.  But I can’t go home now; I have to stay and work on ceramics.  15 teacups are due on Monday, and I don’t have any done yet.  I will most likely need to come in this weekend to work, too, but I’d rather get the most done that I can today.  I also have a pop-up thing to make for my drawing class.  It’s due Wednesday, but I want to get a lot of it done this weekend, but I will be able to do it in class Monday and at home Tuesday.  Plus, I have my normal chapter notes to do for special ed. that are due tonight.  And I have to get signatures for dropping my art metals class.  I have the teacher’s, but I need to get one from the chair of the department before taking the sheet to the dean’s office, and nobody’s in the chair’s office when I check.  I would check now, but I’m tired and semi comfortable, so I don’t think I will.  Later.  Maybe.

Soooooooooooo tired.

There was something else I was going to write about.  What was it?

I really don’t remember.  I just want to sleep.  Why am I so tired?  Maybe I’m depressed.  Well, of course I am.  Maybe I’m low on iron.  Probably.  Maybe I’m just a sleepy person.  Maybe I got into bad sleeping habits.  Sleep is just so nice.

On…Wednesday, maybe, I transferred my Multiply blogs (including my transfer of 360 blogs) to Blogger.  I have to go through and add the photos and such, but that shouldn’t take too long…only 400 some posts…

Okay, I really don’t know what to write, so I’m going to stop trying.  Maybe I’ll go back to ceramics…or maybe I’ll do that later…or maybe I’ll just go home…that would be a poor choice…hmmmm

This is stupid

I got up on time today, started getting ready, and then gave in and “rested” for over an hour, making me late for my first class.  In fact, I got to school with less than an hour of class left and couldn’t bring myself to actually go into class late again, so I didn’t.  Now, I’m sitting here, typing.  Good choice.  I’m allowed to miss three days, this is one.  Plus, three late days equal one missed day.  Well, I’ve been late at least three times in the past week or so, and only one was for a somewhat legitimate reason (a car accident, very minor, but taking up time).  The other late days were because of anxiety and “resting” that I shouldn’t have done.  Granted, it’s probably safer for me to drive after resting than when I’m super anxious, but still.  I’m making a bad habit of being late, and it has to stop.  I’ve decided to change the order of my getting ready so that, hopefully, it’s less suited to resting and gets me to class on time, but I’m not convinced that’s going to work.  Now that I have two days without a class (since I dropped metals…still have to get that paperwork done), I really only have to get up three days a week to go to class, so maybe somehow that will help.  Or at least not having the added stress of metals will help.  I don’t know, but I hope so.

I think I’ve mentioned, in my special education class, we had an online test that was 15 multiple choice questions.  Well, I took it.  First of all, my teacher needs to learn how to check her questions, because some were horribly written and some were on sections of the book we haven’t gone over yet.  I have a 100% on all the assignments for the class, ’cause it’s easy.  This test was an open book, so it should have been easy, too.  And it was, except for the places where she screwed up the wording.  Anyway, I got two questions wrong.  No big deal, except it tells you which answers are correct and I don’t get why they’re right and mine are wrong.  So I emailed the professor, with the questions, answers, why I was confused, and very simple questions for her to answer.  It would have taken her no more than five minutes (assuming she actually knows the answers) to answer my email properly.  What did she do instead?  Totally ignore my questions and simply respond, “I would be happy to discuss this during my office hours.”  Well, that’s lovely, but it’s not what I was looking for.  It actually makes me think, in my slightly paranoid way, that she’s trying to intimidate me to make herself seem more right.  Well, that’s not going to work.  Although I do have social anxiety (which she doesn’t know about), I’m not going to let her get away with poorly written questions and wrong answers on something that affects my grade.  I would have greatly preferred her simply responding to my email with the pages on which the answers could be found or telling me why I was wrong, but now I’ll have to go talk to her.  Oh well.  Guess I should probably check when her office hours are…Alright, the syllabus says she’ll talk after class today, so I’ll catch her then, I guess.  Provided there aren’t a million other people also trying to talk to her about the test…

Why does this room smell oddly of gasoline?  This is strange.  I wonder if anyone else notices.

Well, that smell is gone, replaced by a burnt something.  How reassuring.

I don’t know what else to write, so I guess I’ll be doing something else now.  Maybe I’ll write to the Goodwill center I used to volunteer at and see if I could go again, now that I have days without classes.  Yes, that sounds like a plan.