Well, that’s over

NOT!  It should be, but it’s not.  I am taking three incompletes.  I only had five classes.  And the fourth class should be an incomplete, but the teacher doesn’t care and is just giving me a grade.  So that’s nice at least.

I did finish my drawing class.  I haven’t checked yet to see what my grade is, but it should at least be a B (that’s what my midterm grade was).

As for those incompletes, I have at least 30 pages to write for various assignments.  Then, I’ll be done!  Now if only I could work on it and make progress…

In less than a week, I’ll be starting staff training at camp.  That should be fun.  I’m excited about it.  But I’m also kind of worried that I won’t feel better and won’t be able to do stuff.  But I’m already feeling better now that school stuff is figured out, so I guess that’s a good sign.

Today is the next day after I started writing this.  This morning, my grandma called.  Grandpa is in the hospital, something with his heart.  I think he will be okay, but it is a reminder that they’re getting older and won’t be around forever.

My brother has a new summer job working at a park, doing maintenance stuff.  He’s happy to be making money, but not excited that warmer weather is coming.

Also, there was devastating weather in Oklahoma yesterday.  I’m sure you’ve already heard about it, at least if you’re in the U.S.

I had a good day yesterday.  I started collaging a small box with drawers that my parents got me for Christmas.  Two sides are done.  It was fun.  I’ll probably work on it more tomorrow.

Tonight, I’m babysitting.  That should be fun.  And give me a bit of money for preparing for camp.

The ceiling fan is on.  It is shaking.  It always does that, so I guess it’s probably not going to fall down.

I’ve started playing Lost in Blue on DS again.  And some other games.  It gives me something to do.  Not that I don’t have anything to do, but it’s easy and doesn’t require a lot of effort or movement.  I just wish I knew where my DS and Pokemon game are; then, I’d play that, ’cause Pokemon is fun.

Guess I don’t really have anything else to tell you right now.  I think I’ll play some games and maybe work on my box before I go babysitting.

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I didn’t go to class this morning

I was far too tired for driving to be safe, so I stayed home.  I will go to my afternoon class in about 40 minutes.

I am also feeling very anxious for no apparent reason.  Yesterday, I was feeling very depressed, almost to the point of having tears streaming down my face, which hasn’t happened in a while.  I try to do everything I’ve been taught, all the healthy coping skills and breathing exercises and what not, but it doesn’t help.  It doesn’t get better.  And I don’t like it.

My psychiatrist was in a car accident and is closing his practice so he can recover.  I have about a month of meds left, but I need to find a new doctor.  I also need a doctor to write a note or something for school so that I can substitute another class for art metals, because I am certainly not taking it again, even though it’s required for my degree.

The semester will be over soon.  Then, I will be at camp.  That should be fun.  At least, parts of it will be.  I’m not in a very hopeful mood right now, so I’m not even close to thinking that everything will be better over the summer, though I’ve certainly had those thoughts at other points in time.

Last week, I started a post, but I didn’t get very far or really say anything.  I just couldn’t decide where to start.  Some of the stuff I was going to write about was going to maybe be happyish.  Well, not today.  Oh well.

The worst part is, I don’t know why.  If I knew why, maybe I could fix it.  I do everything I’m told to do to make it feel better, but it just doesn’t work.  Sure, there are moments that are fun or happy, like when I was coloring and gardening with little kids yesterday, but it’s still there.  Always.  If I stop, just for a moment, it gets worse, and then it’s hard to restart whatever I was doing.

I’m so indecisive.  I can’t choose what clothes to wear or what to do, so sometimes I just sit on the couch half-clothed and stare and think and worry.  But, of course, I resist any suggestions anyone gives me to try to help.  Oh, you’re bored?  Why don’t you play with the dog?  Or make a Mother’s Day card?  Nope…there’s something wrong with every idea.

I am kind of hungry.  I would like some ice cream, but I don’t think there is any in the freezer.  I guess I could stop at McDonald’s or something on the way to school.  But that’s maybe too much social activity right now.  I don’t know.  I don’t know anything.

I still have 20 minutes before I need to leave, and I do have much more I could write, but I feel like nobody would want to read it anyway, so why bother.  I guess I’ll try to find something to do, like work on homework or something.  But, probably, I won’t.  And I’ll just sit here, idly clicking and refreshing tabs, hoping for something to happen or someone to talk to me.

Another Post!

Well, it looks like I might be posting more frequently this semester.  I have this awkward 1/2 hour break between two classes, but they’re in the same room, so there’s really no point in leaving.  I guess that means I’ll blog.

If I’m going to be blogging a lot, I suppose I should try to come up with something more interesting to write about.  I mean, I know the details of my life are fascinating…but really.

Let’s see…what to write about…oh, I know.

Here’s an article that one of my education professors asked our class to read today.  Basically, the issue at hand, though it’s a bit clouded in this article, is student privacy.  Specifically, a teacher posted a class picture on her personal Facebook account.  Now, she might be fired, but the school board is unclear as of this moment.

So the question is, should she be fired and did she do something wrong…well, that’s complicated.  I don’t know of any laws that specifically state that teachers can’t put pictures of kids online like that (but there certainly could be).  However, in my experience, a lot (most?) organizations, schools, etc. that work with kids have policies against that sort of thing.  For instance, at camp, we are not allowed to post photos of campers.  The camp can, on official sites, but only with written permission from guardians.  From reading this article (which, let’s be honest, isn’t an example of very rigorous journalistic investigation), it seems that this school/district did not have such a policy in place.  If they did, and she violated it, of course she should be fired.  But if they didn’t…remove the picture, of course…but, more importantly, make a rule about it to prevent future problems.

I think she should have used some common sense and not done that, but if they don’t have a policy, there’s really no grounds to fire her.  Move on.

The larger issue this brings up, I think, is that times, they are a’changin’.  Schools, and everything, basically, need to keep up with technology, media, and society as a whole to prevent things like this from happening.  Posting pictures of kids who aren’t yours on the internet without permission is, frankly, stupid, and people need to realize that.  Maybe it’s the individual’s responsibility to learn that for themselves, or maybe the organizations need to take initiative and do some leading.  Either way, things like this, I think, will continue happening as long as people try to ignore or avoid change.

Well, time for class now.  Type to you later.

The Flu

Last weekend, as I mentioned in my previous post, I was at camp.  It was a lovely time.  I held the camp baby, made a cookie with her three year old brother, failed at melty beads, watched toboggans, ate yummy food, and made friends with campers.  Then, I went home and taught Sunday school Sunday morning, took a nap, and probably did some other stuff, before waking up Monday with a cough.  It wasn’t too bad.  Until the afternoon.  By 4:37ish, I had a fever, lots of pain, bad coughs, headache, dizziness, and general ickiness.  I went to the doctor, where they x-rayed my chest to make sure I didn’t have pneumonia and stuck a giant Q-tip up my nose to confirm the flu.  The latter was positive.  I had influenza b.

Now, it’s been almost a week, and I feel a lot better, but I still have a cough, some aches and pains, and my front bottom teeth hurt.  I don’t know if that’s related, but I thought you’d like to know.  This flu is mean.  Last Tuesday, I was supposed to work at Goodwill, go to a knitting meeting, hang out with a friend, and go to the dentist.  My attendance at all of those, of course, was cancelled.  I was also planning on going to my cousin’s house to do art with her five kids, but now it’s too late and I’ll have to wait.  Hopefully, I can make it work for spring break, but I don’t know.

Also, school is being stupid.  My adviser knows nothing about the education program, and I can’t find anyone who does who will talk to me.  Now, with about a week left before school starts, I’m considering switching schools or taking a semester off.  This is not what I want to do, but if they’re going to be stupid about it, I don’t really have a more logical choice.

On the plus side of this flu, I’ve done some stuff out of boredom.  I made a few cards and wrote some letters in them, made a few macrame bracelets, started my brother’s Christmas present (a macrame necklace), played a bit of Pokemon and a bit of the Sims Medieval, did some word and logic puzzles, and watched hours of Ancient Alien Astronaut Theories on the History Channel (I may have been at least partially asleep through most of those, though, because, let’s face it, those shows are stupid and the narrator’s voice is sleepy).  I also managed to put some new podcasts and things on my iPod and have been listening to those the last couple days.  I quite enjoyed Wait Wait Don’t Tell Me and This American Life.  There was also one that mentioned Little Free Library, which is a really awesome nonprofit you should probably check out by clicking the handy dandy little free link I provided.  That got me started, again, on thinking about the nonprofit I want to start and looking into things to do with that, like other organizations and how to start a business plan and all that jazz…but then I got bored and tired, so I rested and haven’t returned to that stuff yet this afternoon.

Well, I’m getting tired of this, so I think I’ll go find something else to do.

I tried to post on Monday

but apparently something involving the internet/Safari/my computer didn’t like me.  It didn’t like me much today, either, so I’ve switched to Firefox and am posting Monday’s words along with new words for today.

Since I last wrote, I’ve actually done some stuff.  Not a lot, but some.  Let’s see…On Saturday, I hung out with my best friend, playing video games for a couple hours.  Then, I went to my camp director’s baby shower.  On Sunday, I taught Sunday school and was a little crafty.  And now it’s now and I want to sleep.  It’s chilly out and I’m bored.  I had ceramics this morning, and managed to make two sets of teapot parts, so hopefully those turn into two of the four teapots I need.  Then, I had special ed…it was pretty much the same as usual.  The girls who sit around me were annoying, and we covered a topic I was familiar with already (actually, I felt like we had talked about it before in that class, but apparently not).  And then, I *prepare your shocked faces* did two things I’ve been avoiding for weeks!  I set up an advising appointment and finally wrote a note and left my late drop form in the proper mailbox, so now, at the very least, my mom can stop bothering me about those two things for a bit.  The advising appointment is on Wednesday, for about 10 minutes.  I don’t really know how much we can cover in 10 minutes…then again, I don’t know what needs to be covered, so maybe it is enough time.

I need to go to the chiropractor.  My neck and back and hips are crackly.  I also need to get a haircut.  My hair is crackly.  Maybe I’ll do that later this week.  Maybe not.

Tomorrow, I’ll be volunteering at Goodwill.  I think we’ll make bird feeders (the kind with gelatin holding together the seed and shaped by cookie cutters).  That should be fun.  Then, I could either stay there or go to a church lady’s house and knit for a bit.  I haven’t decided yet which I’ll do.  Then, I have a doctor appointment.  My life is so exciting.

 

And now it’s Wednesday.  Let’s see…Yesterday, I got to Goodwill and asked for the supplies for the bird feeders…they didn’t have them, apparently because when they went shopping, one of the clients had a seizure, so they came back without buying anything, and they’re short staffed, so the director doesn’t have time to go shopping…this is all fine and dandy, except for the fact that she told me she was going out shopping the last time I was there, and then left…I assumed to go buy stuff.  Apparently not.  Whatever.  They’re getting new staff in the next few weeks, so after that, she said, they should be able to get the supplies and we can do the bird feeders.  So yesterday, I went into the center, totally prepared to make bird feeders.  I had my cookie cutters and even a wooden spatula thing.  Then I couldn’t do that.  So I improvised with another project I was going to do later, paper plate weaving.  They have tons of paper plates and three skeins of yarn in various colors, so that was perfect.  I prepared the plates for weaving and precut some yarn and got some people to come into the art room.  By some, I mean I was prepared to work with two at a time and they sent in four.  I worked with them and a couple other groups.  Their weavings were mostly a strand or two of yarn tied to a web framework I had made, because nobody seemed to want to do it without my help and then they said they were done.  So, for the last two people, I changed the project.  I had the notches cut in the plates and just let them layer the yarn by securing it that way and wrapping it around.  The woman who did it was impatient, but even hers was a better result than the first attempts had been because I changed the project, but the man who did it, who I know from working with him in the spring seems to like art, spent a lot of time on his piece.  He was pleased with it, it seemed, so that was a good way for me to end my time there.  Next week, since it’s almost Thanksgiving, I’m going to try to find a project that goes with that theme.  I’ve got a few ideas, so I just have to narrow it down and figure out how to make them work with the supplies they have (or reusable supplies I could bring in).

After Goodwill started lunch, I left and went to get my own lunch.  Then, I had about an hour with nothing to do.  I hadn’t brought my computer with me, so I couldn’t make use of the restaurant’s Wi-Fi, so I decided to go to WalMart and look around for a bit.  I got a couple of Christmas present ideas for my godson, but will have to check with his mom first to make sure he’ll like them and doesn’t already have them.  I also came up with some art/craft ideas for him and his four older siblings.  They’re homeschooled, and I teach them art for a couple of weeks every winter.  It’s a really great experience with awesome kids.  I try to come up with new projects that they’ll like while still learning the skills they would if they were in public school.  So far, it’s gone pretty well, and I’d like that trend to continue this year.

After my walk around WalMart, I went to the church lady’s house.  She was hosting a gathering of ladies who knit and crochet stuff for church, like baptismal gifts and prayer shawls.  All the ladies there (about 10) were considerably older than me (some of them had grandkids in my preschool class, and some of them were old enough to be my grandma).  They liked to joke about that, and I felt very welcome in their group.  I’ve started knitting a prayer shawl with some yarn I had, so I’ll be working on that again sometime soon.  I spent about two hours there, and then went to the doctor.  When I got home, I…hmmm…what did I do?…I guess I went online for a while and ate dinner and watched TV.  I also worked on my homemade gift for my camp director’s baby.  I’m cross stitching little booties for her.  I was going to felt some shoes, but that attempt didn’t turn out so well…so I gave up, for now, and went to WalMart, planning to get onesies and fabric markers…I found those, but then saw the booties for cross stitching and decided to make them instead.  So Monday afternoon, I worked on the patterns for them.  I’m making one with a hippo on the bottom and the other with some words from a hippo song we sing at camp.  Then they’ll have little hearts on the tops of the toes.  I think they’ll be cute.  I have two words done so far, and they’re looking good.  I’m going to work on them more this afternoon and tomorrow when I’m not at my other doctor appointment.

Today, I had my advising appointment.  It did not take 10 minutes.  It took about half an hour.  Apparently, my folder was completely empty and my adviser had no idea what I had already taken or needed to take or who to talk to or anything.  So I got the old checklist from the office (they apparently haven’t updated that yet, so who knows if I’m really taking the right classes or not) with the help of the nice secretary lady who works there, and we went through my unofficial transcript together (luckily I had it on my computer already) and determined that I probably only have four more art classes to take.  He knows nothing about the education plan, so I need to find someone to talk to about that.  I also need to register for classes, but I don’t know which to register for because I don’t know what I need or which classes I’ve already taken count for my gen eds and such, or if I need any gen eds, or anything, really.  It’s a bit frustrating.  Also, apparently metals is required for my major (which, I now remember, is why I signed up for it in the first place).  So I guess I’ll have to try that again.  At least I’ve already established a relationship with the teacher, so hopefully something can be worked out when I do take it.  I’m also going to try to get accommodations through the disability services stuff, but I don’t really know what they can do about that class, since soldering is kind of a huge portion of the work.

This weekend, I’ll be working at camp, so I’m super excited for that.  I’ll do arts and crafts, but I don’t know what kind of project I’ll do yet.  I should probably come up with something.

Well, that was a lot of words.  I think I’ll be done now.  Time to cross stitch and eat and maybe even do some homework.